So I feel like dancin' in the rain today! I am so glad it is not steaming hot out anymore. It's been a long past few days, but I am sure time will fly as I approach the school year. Hopefully by then I will be over this pesky sickness that I have been plagued with for over 2 weeks. Thankfully, the doctor gave me some antibiotics yesterday so in the 24 hours or so I should begin to feel normal (which I know is definitely a relative term these days).
Adrian left to go home. . . glory! I have been helping out with our school's cheerleading squad and getting my classroom set up while fighting off this sickness. My parents are on vacation this week, without me:o( but I will survive and hold the fort down.
So with everything that is going on, I feel the urge to dance in the rain. Yes, it will probably get me more sick, but it might just be worth it today:o)
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
Saturday, August 06, 2005
ambition
So I haven't blogged in over a month, but I do have an excuse. For three out of the past 4 weeks I have been at camp as a counselor. I have also been getting ready for the school year to start and some unexpected events have occured this summer.
Camp was splendid. I can't believe how much God has spoken to me up there, even as a counselor. Emotionally, this summer has been a rollar coaster and a whirlwind. Nothing that I expected to happen happened, and the unexpected happened.
The last time I blogged I was confused between two boys, not being able to sort out my feelings, and afraid to let go of a long time interest in one boy. God has definitely shown me the carnality of the heart and how easily one can fall. I did end up dating the new interest for the summer, in attempt to totally let go of my long time past interest. We only "dated" for less than 24 hours because some events occurred that were inappropriate on his part in those 24 hours. It took me a while to get over the fact that I could've prevented his actions.
Through wise counsel I have backed away from that relationship, because the main thing that drew me to it was the attention I was recieving. I was not all about him, like he was all about me. We did talk things out on many occasians, of which he did repeatedly apologized for his actions that night. I did forgive him, but since my heart was never totally in the relationship, I have no desire to keep a dating relationship going with him. I thank God that the Lord stopped me from going too far into a relationship with him.
So after all of that relationship mess I spent a lot of time at camp throwing myself and all that God has taught me into teens lives. I truly feel that God used them more in my life than I was used in theirs. God is so faithful and full of grace and mercy! He has shown me so much about my own heart and how the impurities that are in it.
Camp was splendid. I can't believe how much God has spoken to me up there, even as a counselor. Emotionally, this summer has been a rollar coaster and a whirlwind. Nothing that I expected to happen happened, and the unexpected happened.
The last time I blogged I was confused between two boys, not being able to sort out my feelings, and afraid to let go of a long time interest in one boy. God has definitely shown me the carnality of the heart and how easily one can fall. I did end up dating the new interest for the summer, in attempt to totally let go of my long time past interest. We only "dated" for less than 24 hours because some events occurred that were inappropriate on his part in those 24 hours. It took me a while to get over the fact that I could've prevented his actions.
Through wise counsel I have backed away from that relationship, because the main thing that drew me to it was the attention I was recieving. I was not all about him, like he was all about me. We did talk things out on many occasians, of which he did repeatedly apologized for his actions that night. I did forgive him, but since my heart was never totally in the relationship, I have no desire to keep a dating relationship going with him. I thank God that the Lord stopped me from going too far into a relationship with him.
So after all of that relationship mess I spent a lot of time at camp throwing myself and all that God has taught me into teens lives. I truly feel that God used them more in my life than I was used in theirs. God is so faithful and full of grace and mercy! He has shown me so much about my own heart and how the impurities that are in it.
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